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His Voice

Posted by angela on April 14, 2015
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Please welcome today’s guest writer Michelle Viscuse from  journeypink.  Michelle is a dear friend with a unique and real voice…please check out her post below (more about Michelle at the end of this post). I’d love for you to visit her website: JourneyPINK

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I pulled up to the drive-thru window, digging into my pocketbook for the bright pink wallet that always hides when I need it. I looked up to hand her my card, and all I could see were her bright orange nails as she handed me my drink.

I felt a nudging in my heart to say, “I like your nails.” As I handed her my card, I smiled and tried make eye contact. She closed the window and I had a quick little mind conversation ~ a really quick chat with myself.

“WHAT? Why would I say I like her nails? THAT IS JUST WEIRD. What if she thinks I am crazy. Who does that? I‘m just here for a Diet Coke…”
Again, the gentle whisper, “tell her you like her nails.”

The window opened and my card and receipt were right there, and as I took them I smiled and awkwardly said, “Hey, by the way I love your nails.” As she was closing the door, she paused and smiled as she said, “thank you.”

As I drove away the cold sip warmed my heart and I was smiling too.
It wasn’t long after that encounter that it happened again at the grocery store. Her chipped nails were a pretty color, and as I walked away I said, “I love that nail color on you.” She smiled.

I smiled, and I stopped feeling awkward about it. I started doing it more often. I started noticing nails, and looking for worn faces and weary eyes. I paid attention and listened for the whisper to interrupt the pace of their day with a smile and a kind word.

I slowed down my rush to pay attention.

In the beginning of my healing journey, I painted my nails pink all the time, all shades, all ways to remind myself that I am PINK. I am His Princess.

I am a Princess In Need of a King.

Sometimes in counseling I would focus on my nails as I processed painful memories and flashbacks. There were times when I would literally feel shame cover me from head to toe, and looking at my pink nails helped. Painted nails made a big difference for me, and eventually I started painting them other colors. I found any color helped me to focus on who God says I am and not who I grew up believing I was.

There is a beautiful lady in our church who hugs me every Sunday. She wears bright colors, gloves, scarves, hats – I just love her! One Sunday, she gave me a hug and then took both of my hands and held them as she talked to me. I looked down at her hands and saw she was rocking bright blue nail polish that matched her fancy hat! I let her know how much I loved the color.

I bought some just like it and painted my nails. During my therapy session, I stared at my blue nails the entire time while squeezing a rock with the word “courage” on it. I came back to work and struggled to hold it together. It was a really hard session. A lady came by towards the end of the day to drop off her business cards and treats, and I smiled with puffy eyes and thanked her. She left and as I headed back to my desk – I heard the door open again. I turned around and it was her. She came back in to say to me, “I really wanted to tell you I love your nail color. I really like it!”

I thanked her as she left and then I cried my eyeballs out. I cried because I knew in that moment without a doubt that I was hearing God, His small voice.

He was speaking to me. Notice.

He was whispering, “She is hurting. Look at her. Say a kind word. You know what painted nails do for you? Wonder why she paints her nails? Notice her nails, and the pain in her eyes. Notice her.”

I obeyed and He gave it back to me. He confirmed it for me. He noticed me. He filled me with joy.

God did a major work in my heart that day. He assured me that I am hearing Him, and that my greatest blessing is to be obedient, not just about noticing nail color but about every step he has planned for me ahead. On that day, the voices of doubt and fear were knocked flat. And now, when I hear His still small voice and doubt tries to creep in, I look at my nails and I remember that day. I remember the joy of obedience.

The Lord your God will delight in you if you obey his voice and keep the commands and decrees written in this Book of Instruction, and if you turn to the Lord your God with all your heart and soul.
Deuteronomy 30:10

What about you? Is He whispering to you? What are you learning about His voice?

 

Michelle writes about her journey at JourneyPINK. Pink has not always been her favorite color, but it is now. It reminds her of Jesus and his extravagant love for his daughters.  Because we are ALL Princesses in Need of a King (PINK).

 

 

 

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REALLY ready to step out?

Posted by angela on April 9, 2015
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When we’ve been praying about a situation, talking it over & over with God and begging for direction, are we truly ready when He reveals it to us?
What if He leads us to do something that makes us really uncomfortable? REALLY shakes our safety box?
Could you do it? WOULD you do it?

  • Would you step out of a job with none to go to?
  • Would you move to a new city where you know no one?
  • Would you terminate a relationship you’ve become so familiar with?
  • Could you part with your savings and your finances if you were led to?
  • What if you had to give up your home? Your car? Start all over in life by choice…would you do it?

I know, these can be hard questions. I’m asking because I keep running into situations and people facing this lately.

Hard choices, hard decisions.

Hard in the point that it’s a sacrifice of giving up a lifestyle or something we know or have worked for…to go or do something unknown.

Unscripted

SCARY
We all want to scream that “Yes, Of course”! If the Father is directing us, of course we’d be obedient. But I have to say…when I recently saw this in real life action, it wasn’t what I thought it’d look like.

We’re all heard of people who have given up everything, moved to the other side of the world and became missionaries. We think how amazing they must be and then sometimes offer up a silent prayer ‘please don’t tell me to do that God’ (ever been there?).

I know someone who left a steady corporate job—after many years of getting to a certain level and a ‘safe’ income. They left. No new job, nothing on the horizon. They felt strongly led by the Father it was the right thing to do. This was more than just switching jobs after building a career—they were to quit with nothing to replace it and not much in savings.

Did they do it? Yes.

Did it kill them? No.

Did other believers rally behind them in support? HHmm…not like you would think.

One lifelong follower claimed she could never have done such a thing, even if God told her clearly, because it’d make her give up too much.
Others said the person must not have really heard from God because surely God wouldn’t want you to walk away from a career with nothing to go to.

A few said ‘good for you’ and asked how the job search was going. (Note: God didn’t tell this person to do a job search. His leading was to ‘wait’ but others couldn’t grasp this concept of NOT searching for a replacement career.)

How do you think you would have responded if this was a friend of yours? A family member?
(They did hear “are you crazy?!” more than a few times by the way)

Could you have done it yourself?

It wasn’t easy, it took longer than anyone thought but they landed in a different position and all turned out okay. They are in a better place today—not great, but better.  So if the new place isn’t utopia, what was the point?

The entire process was life changing. Stepping out in pure obedience in such a way was a first for this person. It deepened their faith, their walk and their dependence on the Father. God had their back thru the entire process although there were times of asking and crying out ‘what now??!!’

So what is your moment? Have you been praying for a breakthrough? A change? A new direction?

I encourage you to keep alert…sometimes we are given the direction but it seems so different than anything we can imagine, we dismiss it. We think ‘that can’t be right’ and continue our quest and vigil of seeking direction.

If you were given a direction that just sounds crazy and risky and uncomfortable, would you follow through?

Can He trust you to go where He is leading?

Do you trust Him to guide you, catch you when you fall and keep you upright?

 

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:106

My feet stand on level ground; in the great congregation I will praise the LORD. Psalm 26:12

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6

Faith in Fitness?

Posted by angela on March 31, 2015
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Join me in welcoming guest writer Jack Santora!  

Think your faith and fitness do not intersect? Check out Jack’s perspective!! 

You might be wondering where you can find the work of God in the world of fitness. I mean after all it’s a realm that is highly saturated with self-absorption, vanity, and an obsession for aesthetic results. It feeds on the desires of boys, girls, men and women to have six-pack abs or a tight hind quarter. The industry thrives on supplements, diets, and fad workouts. What worked for Joe Schmo is perfect for you and everyone else in this world for a small monthly payment of an arm and a leg… So where is God in it all?

B.C. (before I knew Christ…) I was someone caught in these worldly lies. Chained by self-consciousness, I relied on the opinions of others to create a false identity. It was easy to get pulled into, but the reality is that all the hours spent in a gym and those “Men’s Health” muscles still leave you feeling empty inside. Some people strive endlessly and work tirelessly to fill that giant void, only to come up empty handed.

And even though physical training is of some value, holiness will serve a greater purpose in this life and the one to come (1 Timothy 4:8).

God desires that we as Christians are disciplined (1 Corinthians 9:27) and that we worship no other idols. While the gym is a great place to begin with self-discipline, society often idolizes the athletes and models that spend their days there, making them into something more than human. Or, just as dangerous, we can even begin to obsess over our own appearance or abilities. Either way, it’s at this moment that the focus has been taken from God and placed in the world. We forget that God created us as beautiful unique individuals. He delicately wove our path with a purpose to fulfill and He’s providing us a unique platform to further His Kingdom.

I’ve found that the gifts the Lord has blessed me with, have given me the opportunity to come in contact with many broken people, physically and, more often than not, spiritually. Although they may not recognize it. I see temples left in ruins from years of abuse and mistreatment (1 Corinthians 3:16-17, 6:19-20).

Bound by fear, they wander in aimlessly looking for an answer in a change of appearance or marching orders from a physician threatening them to exercise “or else”. Their mindset is usually hesitant and they lack motivation, faith, hope, and the belief that they can ever accomplish what they’ve set out to do. If only they knew they could do all things through Christ who gives them strength (Philippians 4:13).

My point is this… the Lord is with us every step of the way in all that we do. I believe the more focus we are able to put on Christ in every environment, the more God will continue to bless our lives and the desires of our hearts. Keep in mind, God does His work from the inside out. So is it really that surprising that we often have to change the way our hearts feel about exercise and nutrition before we see the visible changes physically?

More often than not, we become impatient or lose focus. The devil will always be there to try to distract, derail, and misguide our efforts. He wants to see us fail and fall into his traps because he is out to destroy all things beautiful.

Regardless of the path, I know that God has plans that are good for each and every one of our lives, plans to prosper and not harm, plans to give hope and a future. What more loving promise is there than this? All we have to do is seek Him with all of our heart.

So where is God in it all? In you…

 

Jack Santora is an Exercise Physiologist at a wellness & fitness facility in Columbus Ohio. Connect with Jack at www.facebook.com/JSantoraEP

 

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Enough evidence to convict?

Posted by angela on March 24, 2015
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Today is something new to the blog!!! I wanted to offer different perspectives of our journey as Christ followers & have invited a few guests to offer their insights. Please join me in welcoming guest writer Bruce Ostermeyer.

 

If you were charged with being a Christian would they have enough evidence to convict you?

 

Jesus said in Matthew 7:24 “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. Are you a wise man? Have you ever been a wise man? I guess the bigger question is do you struggle to continue to be a wise man as defined by Jesus.

Jesus goes on to talk about those who hear his words but do not practice them have built a house on sand and not a rock foundation. Throughout my life I have been fortunate to have people enter my life to keep my house on a rock foundation.
Many people say work and religion are a bad mix. You should not pray at work, read a Bible at work or talk to people about your faith. I have never let work interfere with my walk with Jesus. Many of the people who have stepped into my life to help me regain footing have been co-workers.

At a young age I worked for a small telemarketing company. I had just started to date my future wife. I had met a person through her who became a spiritual mentor but it was at work where God’s work was in play. I was struggling with my performance as a sales representative. The Sales Manager decided to move my desk in to an office with the top performing Sales Representative.

Every morning I would walk in and listen to various tapes. Most were Christian speakers or Christian recording artists. He would constantly talk to me about being successful was really in God’s Hands. Basically, if I was a believer in God and it was in God’s plan I would be successful.
One afternoon he walked over to my desk and pulled up a chair. He talked about being a luke- warm Christian. He looked right at me and said if Jesus came back today would you have enough evidence to prove you were a Christian. Now we all know that Jesus knows everything about me so I’m thinking would I really have to do that?!

So he said let me rephrase that “If you were charged with being a Christian tomorrow would a court have enough evidence to convict you?”

It was the first time I had ever heard that phrase. It was very humbling…
I have had other co-workers who have stepped in and helped me move back on to the solid rock foundation. The question that always brings me back to where I’m at in my walk is “If I was charged for being a Christian would someone have enough evidence to convict me?”

How would you answer that question?

 

 

Bruce Ostermeyer is a former Operations Executive with a major bank. He has over 25 years of leadership experience. Bruce is married and has one son. He is widely known for his passion around being a Dad and is a respected mentor on this topic. Bruce often uses the quote “It is an honor to be a Dad and not a privilege.”

Not worried, just ‘concerned’….

Posted by angela on March 18, 2015
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I know we’re not supposed to worry and I have started saying ‘I’m not worrying, I’m just concerned’.
Am I kidding myself with a play on words?

Worry is constantly going over something again & again, wondering ‘what if this happens, or that’ and coming up with possible outcomes or scenarios. Worry includes such a preoccupation with thinking things over, we become almost obsessive about something. We analyze too much. Think it over & over with no different outcome too much. Dream up possible responses to things that may never happen.

The bible tells us to ‘not worry about what we’ll eat or wear’ that you have it covered. But I haven’t found in His word anything like ‘don’t worry about that job issue, this bill that you have no way to pay, that person who is going down a dangerous path’. If the bible covers the bill thing or college tuition or medical bills or getting a new job, I haven’t yet found the verse.

So what do we do? We may think since we can’t find a particular verse that spells out what we should do step by step then we better take care of it ourselves. It’s not covered in the bible, so we better get a plan.

So I dig more through scripture and realize that Jesus was addressing this very thing. No, he doesn’t specifically say ‘your child’s college bill, your medical bill, your job change’ but he did make statements that cover this. When we read through Luke 12 and see that Jesus explains that we shouldn’t worry about the basic stuff like food and clothing much less the bigger things we face. He even said worry accomplishes nothing and has no use. Instead focus on the kingdom and HAVE FAITH. Ahh…there it is. Faith. The basis of our whole relationship. Hmm, back to basics.

After Jesus covered how we shouldn’t worry and gave examples, I saw the one line tucked at the end of Luke 12:28…he said ‘why do you have so little faith?’
Ouch.
But God, it’s not that I have little faith…I do! I have faith in you but this situation isn’t going away and I see nothing for a solution in sight. Surely you want me to do something about this so HELP!

We cry out and sometimes we have a sense of a direction to handle the issue at hand. Many times, we don’t. We panic. We start the scheming and analyzing process AGAIN. Before we know it, we’re knee deep in a full throttle worry session that is starting to make us nuts.

I admit…I have not overcome this area of my life. I try and keep trying but haven’t mastered it yet.
When deadlines are imposed and I have to do SOMETHING and don’t feel or hear a sense from God on what to do…well, what else do we do but worry? Cry? Pray more?

I don’t have an answer to each of the issues I’m facing. I bet you don’t feel you have the answers to everything either.

I’m learning to cling in a new way however. I’m hanging on to the advice of Jesus…”Seek the Kingdom ABOVE ALL ELSE and he will give you everything you need’. Well, I need direction and answers. NOW.

Okay, but I need to see the kingdom above all else. Is it just me or does this feel more elusive at times than it should? I’m making it harder than it needs to be? Ever been there?I catch myself going into the spin cycle of freaking out or worrying. I then read another verse in Luke and almost missed it!

“So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom.” Luck 12:32

Don’t be afraid, little flock. This is so simple yet reassuring! Don’t be afraid of the outcome or this issue. And his term of endearment ‘little flock’ reinforces we are little children he wants to take care of. Just as us as parents want to rescue our children when they’re headed for disaster, he wants to take care of us if we will just get out of the way and let him.

I want this. I want to stop the worry cycle. So why don’t I? It’s a step by step process for me-for you too?

Hang in there with me! We have to practice putting our Seeking of the kingdom FIRST that displays our FAITH. These things in turn will keep us from our FEAR—so our Father will take care of things as he sees fit and as he leads us.

Then, turning to his disciples, Jesus said, “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday lifewhether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear. Luke 12:22
And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things? Luke 12:26
And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? Luke 12:28
These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs. 31 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need. Luke 12:30-31

 

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Not ‘good’ enough

Posted by angela on March 4, 2015
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So I was speaking with a new acquaintance last week. She told how her husband had just gone through a heart attack and is now in rehab and what a struggle the past month has been.  I commented how great it is that he’s on the road to recovery and fortunate that she is by his side.

Her next statement has been rattling through my head since she said it “well, I told him God gave him a 2nd chance so he better be really good and not mess it up”. 

I thought she was joking since God doesn’t give us a ‘be good or else’ type salvation. I said something about how great is it that even if her husband isn’t ‘good’ that he’s still held by the Father. She looked at me like I was crazy and said ‘Yeah, right. Like it works that way’ and left.

I’ve been haunted by this exchange. I didn’t get a chance to speak with her further since she left the facility. But it made me realize how many of us may operate in our daily lives with this belief….or even more so—know this is false but continue to act like its true.

Ever have these thoughts run through your head:
• “I better not mess up again. Surely God has had enough of me and all my problems”
• “I lived through this situation by God’s grace—I better work a lot harder to keep Him happy from now on.”
• “God only has so much patience so this time, finally, I better get it right”

Or perhaps you’ve had someone comment to you:
• “Well, you’re one of those church Christian types, so you probably don’t have issues like I do. You wouldn’t get it.”
• “You Christians act like you’re so great but you’re all hypocrites since I know some Christians that do a lot more bad stuff than I do”

Whenever these type exchanges happen, it always saddens me. The depth of misunderstanding so many people have of Jesus followers. Some think we’re all ‘better’ or pretend to be better. Others see what train wrecks many of us are and use it as an excuse that we’re no better than anyone else, so we must be hypocrites.

I know, there are a zillion examples and I’m sure you’ve experienced some in your life as well.

This screams something to me—we have to let them know! Know they are not stuck in their current choices as a permanent prison. There is a way out.

Let them know there is more…much more than hanging out at a church on Sunday. There is something very real that can change their lives, just as it has every believer.

Yes, Christians make mistakes-we all know this. We are human and mess up—some of us a lot more than others (okay, so that was intended for me!)

But when others watch us in our struggle—the unwed pregnant teen daughter, the unkind words, the drug addiction, the cheating spouse, the financial dishonesty,etc . Of course, these are all examples of things none of us want but sometimes happens.

What the world sees is our mistake or colossal sin. What they don’t see is our place with God. What they need to understand is despite our mess, He still holds us and doesn’t kick us out. How do they see that? You, me. We show them. How we humbly give it to Him and walk forward in healing.

We are on a mission, I know. Our mission field is whoever we have contact with on a daily basis. To show them a different way, a different mindset, a freedom they’ve never had before. Yes, a true freedom.

Not something you make up and follow your ‘own’ spiritual journey and redefine who God is based on what you want.

This is an important task friends! We are called to go forth…even in our daily mundane routines. Even when we think no one is watching. Others need to see we are saved by His grace and not our own actions.

I encourage you to reach out to someone you normally wouldn’t this week. Not to unleash a sermon on them, but just a word of encouragement, something to let them know they have value. Many people are so broken they feel there is no value left in them. Or they don’t do enough ‘good’ anymore.

At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. 4 But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, 5 he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit… Titus 3:3-5

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16

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Zap me!

Posted by angela on February 21, 2015
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Has this ever happened to you? You’re driving along in traffic and the 2 lane highway is merging into 1 lane. Traffic flows together but then someone decides to make a race out it…They fly past other cars (yes, illegally), trying to get as much in front of the rest of the traffic as they can. The lane starts to end and they are relentless, even to the point of running the other traffic off the road. It’s not their right of way, it’s the other cars-no matter. They want to be first, in front of other cars and they will do what they have to be in front, despite the legality, courteous driving or safety they disregard.

This sad display happened again last night while driving home. We watched in disgust as a minivan was persistent in racing the other traffic. They behaved as massive jerks! The kicker? We were horribly embarrassed to see a Christian bumper sticker and cross proudly displayed on their bumper. YIKES.

I know, this is a usual event in everyday traffic. Rude drivers with self-focus wins over safety-much less courteous driving. But seeing the Christian bumper strips on the rude driver was the smack in the face. WOW…and we wonder why or how believers can get such bad stereotypes assigned to them.

You may think this is no big deal. Why am I writing and whining about such a trivial thing as yet another jerk driver?

Well…I think this does matter. We who profess to be followers of Christ are supposed to be different. Different than the rest of the world. Different in how we behave—to each other and to everyone.

We can’t get caught up in the idea of our behavior only matters with church related activities. Or how we ‘really’ feel in our hearts is all that matters and our treatment of others isn’t a big deal.

• What about when your nonbeliever friend makes a substantial donation to a church but no one even offers a ‘thank you’

• A brand new believer is nervous about being around ‘church’ people but gathers the nerve to enter a new bible study group only to have plastic smiles- they sit alone wondering why they are bothering at all

• You’re busy, you’re distracted and you have a zillion things to do. You rush thru your days and never realize the people in your path that you mowed over, ignored and all that they longed for was a kind word and smile from a stranger.

• We lift our hands in praise and voices in song but don’t lift a finger to be polite to someone

I’m not trying to make anyone feel guity. We’re all guity of something like this at some time. I know I’ve done things I’m definitely not proud of…and that’s just the instances I’m aware of! Hopefully just awareness, something to make us have a half second of thinking again about our actions, may make the difference to someone. Are we really doing anything different than our nonbelieving counterparts if we’re just as rude in traffic, rude in the grocery store, ignore the needs around us?

I guess the biggest shock (and I have no idea why this would shock me) is the treatment some have towards other believers. The bible tells us to lift one another up. We look for other sisters or brothers in Christ then treat them like something on the bottom of our shoes. What has happened to us? We’ve become numb it seems.

Maybe we need a tazer shock. Something that goes off to ‘buzz’ us into a new mindset when we start to veer off into our own self focused mentality.

“I have to get to the next thing on my list & don’t’ have time to say hi to that other mom. She’s annoying anyhow’
BUZZ…ZAP!

Rushing through a store to make it to the next appointment, we run off without a smile or thanking the clerk.

BUZZ ZAP!

Nothing earth shattering, I know. But the basic manners of saying hello, offering a smile, being POLITE, saying thank you…these things are a basic ‘must to’ for many of us but its shocking to see how little its displayed.

So…just a reminder fellow traveler… do a quick check of yourself…if your mother & Jesus were standing next to you, would you behave/speak this way? Just a little check!

Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Romans 12:16
Philippians 2:5
In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus
Hebrews 10:24
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds,

 

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Can I trust you??

Posted by angela on February 12, 2015
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It’s been something of a struggle. Trusting God in the midst of our daily walk when things are NOT going the way we pray or hope or want. This makes me take a closer look at TRUST in general…Can we really trust God to handle all the details? It doesn’t look like He’s doing much at times so how do we keep trusting Him? We know he is CAPABLE but WILL he come through for us?

I think back over instances where I just ‘knew’ you, Lord, would rescue me from a situation. You didn’t. It makes me uneasy with the trust question. Do I trust you could have rescued me? Yes. But you didn’t. So it makes me say I don’t know if I can trust you to save me from a situation. You CAN but WILL you?
I don’t know why you didn’t rescue me from certain things….you did rescue me from some situations, but not others. So in my human mind, it says I can’t trust you to swoop in for a rescue mission every time since you haven’t in the past. In a deeper thought…because I wasn’t rescued doesn’t mean you didn’t pay attention or didn’t care. It means for whatever reason, usually one I don’t personally like, you chose to not rescue me. This is where many people get trapped with their faith. How can someone who professes to love me let me suffer? Let me go thru bad situations? If you love me, you’d rescue me.

WAIT
This is what we see from our perspective. But there is a bigger picture here we don’t see. Frankly when we’re in this mess, we don’t care to see it. We just want out. I think of examples with my own children. They are in a situation that is bad…either of their own making or it just worked out that way. They want me to fix this. But if I swoop in and fix the situation, they never learn how to deal with it on their own or how to look at alternatives or how to maneuver thru struggle. We call this ‘tough love’ sometimes.

Maybe this is what is at hand when you don’t rescue us from a situation. We don’t care about learning some lesson or making ourselves more resilient, we just want out. But it’s not what’s best for us, and we can’t see that. You can. Back to trust…
I discovered in the Jewish bible, the word for ‘faith’ is ‘trust’. What a great perspective—faith IS trust!

“But the person who is righteous will live his life by trust” Romans 1:17 (CJB)

Do we trust you Father? Trust that you really do love us? Really to have what is best for us in your plan? If we’re in an uncomfortable or even horrible position, we just want a rescuer…we don’t care about learning a lesson. But that’s our limited viewpoint. You see the big picture the better good that will eventually come from something.

So please forgive me Father. For all the times I scream and cry that you don’t care enough, love enough to rescue me. Help my unbelief father in trusting you to be the ultimate provider for my good!

Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. Romans 4.20

So why all the suffering and leaving us to go thru the ICK when you could so easily rescue us? I think back to the sufferings of Christ…and if he had to suffer, why would I think I shouldn’t?

Son though he was, he learned obedience from what he suffered…Hebrews 5:8

I see from your word that the sufferings teach us obedience. It teaches us to be strengthened in our faith. I hadn’t realized how much a lack of trust is rebellion against you. Your word has stories how your followers rejected your leading due to lack of belief-lack of trust—which really is a form of rebellion.

There you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.” In spite of this, you did not trust in the Lord your God, who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go. Deuteronomy 1:31-32

It just seems so exhausting to know it’s a constant walk of battles…thankfully we have already won the battle—we just sometimes don’t realize it and keep battling the wrong things.
Thank you for the victory Father! I DO trust you do what is best—help me in my wavering trust at times! Sometimes just trusting will be my sacrifice.


Offer the sacrifices of the righteous and trust in the Lord. Psalm 4:5

Cry to a loved one in despair

Posted by angela on January 29, 2015
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You feel consumed. The darkness and emptiness have been with you so long that you can’t remember happiness anymore. Why continue? The days are so long, dark and seem to stretch before you like a long road to nowhere. You’re tired. You’ve tried time and again to make things right. You take one step forward and three steps back. You know right from wrong but it just doesn’t seem to matter any more.

Why fight for doing the ‘right’ things when nothing good comes from it?
• You’ve tried a new path, new directions but it left you more empty than when you started.
• You’ve tried to get involved with new people but never fit in.
• Tried a new job but it left you hollow and unfulfilled.
• The loneliness creeps in to such a deep level that no one can reach you

The internal fighting spirit you thought you had seems to slowly vaporize…until thoughts of returning to your old ways seem more attractive than existing in your current life.

Your faith…well, you believe in God but where is He? You’ve cried and prayed and tried to keep on the straight path but you’re losing the battle. You feel abandoned. If God really cared, why would He let you continue to drag on day by day in this battle and not help, not rescue you? Maybe you had it all wrong-maybe this God stuff isn’t what you were taught. Maybe He is out there but you’re not faithful enough, good enough, strong enough to walk a path with Him. He wants too much and you’re too tired to do anything.

Why bother? What future do you really have anyhow? You’ve made such a mess of your life already that most people have already given up on you. Why keep fighting?

The pain is overwhelming and you know exactly what will make the pain go away, at least for awhile.

Sure, it means stepping back into a dangerous life but if it will numb the pain, its worth it. What have you got to lose anyhow, right?

So you give in. You go back to it.

Your life starts to fall apart even more. The family is exhausted from walking this path with you and they’ve had it with yet another battle on this addiction scene.
Where do you go? Why are you even alive if this is all there is?

My cry to you loved one: thru the mental fog I pray you can hear or know this truth:
You Are Loved
More than you’ll ever know. You are not worthless or a throw away. You have value. You are worthy!
Yes, its hard but there is a way out. Even if you can’t see it yet I pray you don’t give up hope. Keep asking and crying out to God, He will provide a way out. You have to take the chance when He gives it.

You have a purpose. You are so precious to God and to others. You may not see it or feel it but its true!

Don’t give up loved one. Keep seeking and hanging on—there is a wonderful future for you! God hasn’t given up on you!

“but I will not take my love from him, nor will I ever betray my faithfulness.”Psalm 89:33

“Because he[b] loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.” Psalm 91:14-16

RUN? me? I don’t feel like it!

Posted by angela on January 20, 2015
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She was panting but wouldn’t stop. “Keep going, DO NOT QUIT” she kept telling herself. Her body was screaming to take a break but she knew better—one second to take a break would turn into stopping all together. She kept going. One foot in front of the other. Gasping for air, feeling a panic starting to set in…”STOP IT!” she screamed to herself. ‘Keep going. It’s all worth it in the end. Forget the feeling of wanting to collapse…keep those feet moving. Go forward. Don’t look back, keep moving’. Her pace slowed but she didn’t’ stop. There was something blocking her running path ahead—no matter. Go around it or jump over it, she told herself. Just don’t quit.

Ever feel like this runner? Gasping for air, fatigue covering you like a wet blanket and you’re motivation is nowhere to be found? Ready to give up and stop going? Keep going! One foot in front of the other…keep it moving!!

I’ve noticed the big talk seems to be what everyone’s “Word of the Year” is. I wasn’t familiar with this concept until this year (I may have been under a rock, its true). At first I thought it was a cutsie way to reword New Year resolutions. But when I heard someone say we don’t just pick a word for ourselves–instead we pray and ask the Father to give us a word He wants us to focus on or realign our thoughts towards.

After thinking about this and praying about it…is this silly or is it truly a meaningful path we can walk with God? I realized something…Its really listening to our Father and His direction.  Its Him giving guidance to His kids. In our search for guidance and new beginnings (since it’s a new year), we turn our ears to be more in tune with His indications.

Many of you already know what your ‘word’ is for this year. What a great encouragement for kicking off new beginnings! If you don’t yet know about this or have a word, I encourage you to not give up. Keep asking the Father for your word…He loves to be personal with us and delights in us relying on Him.

If you haven’t guessed yet, my word was a surprise this year: its “RUN”. I wished I could say I embraced this word quickly. Nope…I kept asking God ‘Are you sure? Run? Me? But I’m tired…” you can guess my list of reasons why the word ‘run’ at first didn’t resonate with me. But on deeper prayer and talking with Him, I now see it differently.

I believe this word can mean something for you too.

 I can now see how it already applying to so many areas of my life—and scripture backs it up!

• Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. (1 Corinthians 9:24)
run with perseverance (Hebrews 12:1)
• Don’t run dry (paraphrase from 1 Kings 17:16)
• I run in the path of your commands, for you have broadened my understanding. (Psalm 119:32)
• He sends his command to the earth; his word runs swiftly.(Psalm 147.15)
• When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. (Proverbs 4:12)
• The name of the Lord is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe. (Proverbs 18:10)
• but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
• You were running a good race. Who cut in on you to keep you from obeying the truth? (Galatians 5:7)

Ouch…that last one burned a little!

So I realize now that RUN can apply to us all in some aspect.

We don’t give up, no matter what the world tells us, how we may feel or how hard it looks ahead. We keep going. We have a different goal than others and our race, marked before us, is different for each one of us. The Father lays a route for each of us follow for our lives…we just have to respond.

I encourage you to pray about your ‘word’ for this new year if you haven’t yet. If you have, please share it in the comments and we can encourage one another! Keep me honest friends as I also fall off the wagon and want to give up sometimes—let’s keep each other running forward to what lies ahead.

Thank you Father for your encouragement for each of us.